What to do?

I know that I haven't had a post in a long time but I have a very good reason why I haven't though. I really don't feel like going into all the details right now because I have something more important on my mind at the moment that I feel that I need to get out. Do not worry though, I will eventually explain what has been happening in my 20+ post-less days.

So Carmen is now my girlfriend and I am very happy to say that, but there is one problem/issue (not really a bad thing as the word problem may make you think). We had gotten into talking about marriage and when we would think about actually marrying someone. My answer was about three years from now, although this isn't definite. I don't know what her exact answer was but she says that three years is a long time. I am not the arguing type, we each have our own opinions is all. My thought process was that three years is good because I should be mostly finished with school, have a better job and I would still only be 23 years old. If I was to marry her, three years from now, she should also either be mostly done or finished with school and still only be either 21 or 22 (depending on the month). I thought that this sounded like a decent plan, but she told me that she cannot wait that long, maybe I am being selfish and only thinking of myself. We had a conversation on the phone about this last night and were unable to come up with a solution. I told her that I would give it some thought which is pretty much all I did last night because if there was any girl that I wanted to marry, she is the one.

As I was thinking about this dilemma last night, I came up with a few different ideas but I only had two that could actually work. The first one was that maybe I am not supposed to get married to her at all and maybe not ever. I don't think that I would have a problem with not getting married to her, or anyone at all. Plus I don't mind living by myself either. The one thing that I know that I will have a really hard time with is knowing that she would marry, love, and have a family with someone else. My second possibility would be to not wait as long to get married even though I may not think that I am ready to get married. With this second idea, I have slowly come up with other reasons why this may be a better solution. The most significant reason is that I love her and always will so it wouldn't matter when we get married because I just want to be with her forever.

Last night as we talked on the phone it sounded to me like she was upset. I hope that she isn't but I guess she the right to be because I may have disappointed her. I will do anything to keep her.