My Vacation

I went on vacation two weeks ago now, and I said last week that I will write about what I did on my vacation. But I'm having second thoughts now. While everything that happened on my vacation was good and made me very happy, there are also a few things that were a result of my vacation that I do not want to remember; I am having a hard enough time right now trying to forget the things that have happened. So, for anyone that may read this and be interested in knowing what happened, I am sorry because I will not be writing about any of it.

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I need help. The girl that I will fly to the moon for... doesn't really want me to fly to the moon for her. Maybe if she was any other girl, I wouldn't, but this one is the most special to me. I love her so much so that I cannot describe it with any words that I know. I have told her this before, but I don't think that she was able to fully understand the amount I was talking about. But as much as I love her, the amount that she says she loves me, I believe that I had only one chance to prove it to her and I screwed it up because I wasn't prepared. Now I am almost sure that she will find another person, one that is prepared. I know what I need to do and am working on it so that if she happens to be the "exception to the rule", maybe the one that got away can also be the one that returns. This is all I have to hope for but my chances are slim to none. Only time will tell, unless someone has any better ideas. I don't know how long I can wait, and if it is too long, I know for sure that I will be too late.

Contrary to what I said before, under certain circumstances, I am not ready to give up... not on her.