Lazy Update

I haven't updated in almost two weeks and I really don't have any excuse other than I have been really lazy. Well, I guess I can explain a little about what I've been up to.

Last weekend I moved out of the apartment and moved back into my parents house. I know that is such a sorry thing but I really didn't have any other decent options. Anyway, I moved all my things Saturday and Sunday and cleaned on Monday, a very spectacular Memorial Day. All of it pretty much sucked because it was something like 1000 degrees outside all weekend. Also because when I got my things back to my parents house, I didn't have anywhere to put them because my sister had decided not to clean her stuff out of the room that I would be moving into. So I not only had to clean the entire apartment, because all Robert did was vacuum his room, but I then had to clean the room that I hadn't even slept in yet at my parents house. It was pretty crappy.

Moving on... I also saw the new Indiana Jones movie twice this last weekend, once by myself on Thursday and again with my family on Monday. I was pretty happy too because last Friday I was given the new Blackberry Curve (8320 for T-Mobile) for work and on Saturday morning got a LG Voyager VX10000. So that made the weekend a little better. I was also excited all week because I was supposed to be getting my new Dell XPS M1530 on Thursday but it was delayed and now isn't supposed to arrive until Monday.

Other than those few things, I have just been doing the normal go to work thing and that's about it. I don't have any plans this weekend, and if it is as hot as it was last weekend,I don't want to have plans.

The Way Home From Work

Alright, I know that I should probably be writing about other things but...

On the way home from work, I got in a race with a Corolla S, probably 04-05, and lost :( I know that their engine is a lot newer than mine but still. It was so frustrating because I didn't just lose, there was a good distance between us. Ugh, I am really tired of my car now.

A Little More Than A Week

Yep, it's been a little over a week since my last post but I think that I have a good excuse... finals. So I was putting more focus into school trying to make sure that I would at least pass my classes because this semester was very challenging for me. Especially my history class and it doesn't help that I never liked the subject either. I was also strugling with my governement class too. I also had philosophy which wasn't too bad, I sucked at all of the tests but aced all of the writing assignments. My last class is astronomy which was really a piece of cake to begin with.

So the day to take finals came and I knew that I did pretty bad on my history final after I took it because it just didn't feel right. Then, I had to take my government final right after that. Even though my government final was comprehensive, it still seemed like a much easier test, except for the "fill in the blank" questions, than our other tests.

The next day I only had one final, astronomy. Now I didn't study for this test at all and I can say that there were maybe only 2 or 3 questions that I didn't get mostly because of how the questions is worded (my professor is Chinese and makes a few grammatical mistakes). After that test I was done until my philosophy test which was the next day. Since my philosophy test is online, you would expect it to be pretty easy and thats exactly what I thought, but I was wrong. During the test I felt like I was answering correctly but when I finished and got my grade, I did much worse, a 64%. At least that wasn't the only thing I had to do; I also had to turn in my final writing assignment which I was hoping would come out much better than my test score.

After a few days all of my grades were in. The final verdict was 1 A, 2 B's and 1 D with a GPA of 2.846 for the semester. I am sure you can guess which grades go to which classes, but I was very surprised to see a second B. The other B goes to my government class.... crazy?! Other than that I am happy with my grades because my only goal this semester was to pass all of my classes and that is exactly what I did. Now time for summer.

I was really wanting to move back to California this summer but after having a look at what I have left here for school, I decided that I will stay until next January or February. All that I have left is a total of 5 classes. So I will be taking 2 classes during the first summer semester which starts in June and maybe 1 or 2 more the second half of summer. That would leave me with 1 or 2 (depending on how many I take during the summer) classes left to take in the fall before I can finally earn my associates. I figured, with the help of some other people's opinions, that it is better that I stay and get my degree because it will also give me time to save up some money for the move back to California.

Well, I am tired of typing for now... I should be back later with some more.

What is happening?

Why do I care so much? Am I in envy? Is it admiration? Am I jealous? Maybe I just don't want to see the truth. I know now, from experience, that the truth is very painful. You can't help who you love, can you?

I can't help but think that maybe it was all wrong to begin with. If I never pursued it, I would never have had to deal with these feelings. For me, it borderlines the impossible to deal with.

I think I have a bad habit of giving up and running away from things. If it's not there, you don't have to deal with it. Makes me wonder what/who is in Canada. If it is nobody and nothing, perfect. It should be easier to forget things there. Right?

Who am I kidding. I will end up answering these questions myself. What is the point of even asking.

I read the last chapter in my philosophy book about the meaning of life. Nobody knows the answer. Pointless.

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