Quick

Just a quick little write up.

I was just reading over some of my RSS/Atom subscriptions and came across something I would much rather have preferred to never read. I don't think I want to quote what it said but I can tell you how it made me feel.

Very sad. Yes. And it came from one single sentence. It even happened before I finished reading that one sentence. It was like suddenly being stabbed (or something like that). It was so sad even, that I am beginning to feel depressed. Why? Because I know that I could have done something about it. But instead, I chose to do nothing. So maybe I deserve the sadness? I am leaning towards the fact that this is something that I do deserve because of the poor choice(s) that I have made in my life. I guess it is the price that I must pay, but it will be something that I must deal with forever. That is how long the consequences of me not making the one most right choice of my life will be.

I am not exactly sure what to do now. I want to unsubscribe from that feed. But at the same time stay subscribed because maybe it was a bad joke. Then again...

Even stranger, not really (makes sense to me), is that now I have an even stronger disliking of Texas and wish that I had never moved here. Maybe I will write about this more. Maybe not. It is not something that I really want to remember, so I really don't want to look back at this blog years from now and experience the same feelings again.

So much for "Quick".